Heart Like A Hole

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Paula C. Deckard

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As a surgeon, Ellen Parker hungers to discover the human body's intimate secrets, both on the operating table and in her sexual odyssey. While we explore her secrets in ever more nightmarish ways, it becomes clear that the tension between her career and disturbing sex life cannot be maintained.


Suspense / Thriller, Drama,Black Comedy,Drama,Other,Family,Suspense/Thriller,Romance

Short Summary

It opens with Ellen's flashback as a teenager having intercourse with an older man, who fails in satisfying her. After that scene, we change to the present where we see Ellen in New York, now a junior heart surgeon performing a minimally invasive heart surgery, which ends with her patient dying.

Success brings no satisfaction. Ellen becomes aware that she has to face her unrequited childhood love, which hints to abuse throughout the story. She returns to her home in Connecticut and captures her perpetrator.


New York

Based on a True Story


Plot - Premise

,Revolt against the meaninglessness of life,Internal Journey/Rebirth,Other

Plot - Other Elements

Twist, Philosophical Questions,,Coming of Age,Philosophical Questions

Mature Audience Themes

Nudity, Language/Profanity, Sexual Abuse,Sexual Abuse

Main Character Details

Name: Dr. Ellen Parker

Age: 33

Gender: Female

Role: Protagonist

Key Traits: Complex, Crazy, Decisive, Narcissistic, Power-hungry, Sexy, Sophisticated, Blunt, Funny, Perseverance, Seductive, Confident, Secretive, Aspiring, Aggressive, Educated, Lone Wolf, Skillful, Beautiful,Aspiring,Charming,Modest,Narcisstic,Sexy,Crazy,Blunt,Power Hungry,Decisive,Engaging,Outspoken,Secretive,Seductive,Sophisticated,Leader,Manipulative,Lone Wolf,Unapologetic,Skillful,Honorable,Greedy,Educated

Additional Character Details

Name: Dr. Stuart McCormick

Age: 39

Gender: Male

Role: Mentor

Key Traits: Sarcastic, Skillful, Sophisticated, Complex, Gracious, Masculine, Outspoken, Blunt, Empathetic, Honorable, Funny, Leader, Engaging, Faithful, Strong Moral Code, Aspiring, Confident, Decisive, Educated,Funny,Masculine,Modest,Charming,Complex,Confident,Decisive,Empathetic,Engaging,Faithful,Gracious,Heroic,Secretive,Seductive,Sophisticated,Leader,Honorable,Educated,Sexy,Aspiring,Selfless,Outspoken,Skillful,Blunt

Additional Character Details

Name: Dad

Age: 60

Gender: Male

Role: emotional

Key Traits: Confident, Empathetic, Funny, Selfless, Aspiring, Clumsy, Educated, Faithful, Strong Moral Code,Adventurous,Modest,Aspiring,Charming,Decisive,Blunt,Selfless,Empathetic,Engaging,Faithful,Gracious,Funny,Skillful,Sophisticated,Honorable,Heroic,Educated,Outspoken

Additional Character Details

Name: Norman Brooke

Age: 41

Gender: Male

Role: Logical

Key Traits: Empathetic, Engaging, Outspoken, Secretive, Underdog, Aggressive, Complex, Decisive,Underdog,Modest,Blunt,Skillful,Secretive,Complex,Aspiring,Confident,Decisive,Unapologetic

Development Pitch

In the postmodern era, we rewrite something that we may have seen before. Still, we make it more original and more controversial by, for example, adopting psychological horror a la Nicolas Winding Refn, Lars von Trier or David Fincher. It will be a movie where the sight of blood will spark pain, not goosebumps. I created an unreliable narrator and protagonist who is inspired by Patrick Batemen, Dexter Morgan and Albert Camus' philosophy. Except that it's a woman who desperately wants to be human and fit in, even though she realizes that she's not like them. So she blends in and subtly creates meaning, even if it's based on a lie. She mends her broken heart through surgery and searches for sexual climax by sleeping with her patients, but none of it brings her closer to herself. There's only tension between the worlds that she has built, and they're colliding destructively. Imagine beautiful Charlize Theron playing the lead - a cardiac surgeon who talks to her patients' blood. Watch how she explores her deep secrets in ever more nightmarish ways before facing her past, which may or may not be her undoing. There are many descriptions of the colour red, and it's not for the squeamish.

About The Author

Paula C. Deckard was born in Hamburg, Germany, in 1984. She studied her (BA) English Literature & Creative Writing degree at BCUC (High Wycombe, UK) and her (MA) Creative & Life Writing degree at Goldsmiths College (London, UK). Heart Like A Hole is her first book of fiction. Paula lives in Canada.

Target Audiences

Age: 18-34,35-54,55+

Target Gender: Universal,Female Leaning

Group Specific

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Publishing Details

Status: Yes: self-published

Publisher: Paula Cheung

Year Published: 2018

Hard Copy Available