Don't Let IT Show

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20th Century (multiple decades)

Randy S. Boucher

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Growing up as a gay Jehovah witness in a straight mans world. What will a depressed alcoholic mother, an cult for a religion, and a bunch of blue collar workers do to a person. Make you want to kill your selves. What else?



Short Summary

"This author has achieved the pinnacle of tugging at one's emotions. He shares with this hate-filled unforgivable world, his own life's true experiences, a life that is filled with stories and events of sadness, happiness, challenges, and drama, and laughter.

I found someone who not only loves me but makes me feel safe. More important, he lets me just be me, with all the baggage that comes with it. I hope that my true-life experiences will help today’s gay youths. By showing them that, Life does get Better. But first you need to learn to forgive.


Woonsocket, R.I., Portsmouth, N.H., Virginia beach, VA. and Seattle, WA

Based on a True Story


Plot - Premise

Internal Journey/Rebirth,Other

Plot - Other Elements

Meaningful Message,Happy Ending

Mature Audience Themes

Language/Profanity,Substance Abuse

Main Character Details

Name: Randy Scott Boucher

Age: From birth to 57

Gender: Lgbt

Role: Emotional

Key Traits: Sexy,Complex,Religious,Blunt,Funny,Sarcastic,Underdog

Additional Character Details

Name: Joyce Boucher

Age: from 25 to 72

Gender: Female

Role: Emotional

Key Traits: Aggressive,Crazy,Religious,Insecure

Additional Character Details

Name: Aaron Parker

Age: 46

Gender: Lgbt

Role: logical

Key Traits: Adventurous,Charming,Confident,Faithful,Funny,Romantic,Educated,Honorable

Additional Character Details

Name: Aaron

Age: 46

Gender: Male

Role: logical

Key Traits: Adventurous,Confident,Faithful,Funny,Honorable,Educated

Development Pitch

To show difficulties growing up in a cult and gay. To let todays gay youth know that it does get better. This is a journey of a boy with a very troubled upbringing trying to figure out who he is in this world. The journey begins as he fights for his life, to wish at times he had lost that fight. A boy struggling with the fear he might be gay. At a youthful age, converting to Jehovah Witness putting an added burden and feeling of guilt upon him. Follow the bewildered boy as he becomes an even more confused adult. Why he gets married at an early age and has a son. Far-removed from the perfect family as it all falls apart. He opens up his emotions as he describes coming out as a gay man, and the consequences that followed. The battling with the Courts to be able to visit with the one person that meant the most to him. The struggles he encounters being gay and HIV+ while working as a machinist in a blue color world. Eventually he finds him battling with the decision of suicide. To survive he has must learn to let go of his past and to learn to forgive. He explains this in the only way he knows how, and that is with humor. If you look hard enough, you will discover a joke in any situation, it is just a little harder to see through tears.

About The Author

This is my first book and a international book award finalist.I wrote about my life. From growing up with an alcoholic mother who tried to kill me before I was even born. To being put in a Catholic orphanage when I was four. Later our family became freaking Jehovah Witnesses, which was difficult because I am Totally gay. I explain what it was like to get married to a woman and have a son to only end in divorce and fighting in court for years just to be able to see him. I explain what it was like coming out and then loosing friends, family and being tossed out of a religion. A religion that controlled my entire life up until coming out. Then I tried to kill myself. I had many disastrous relationships. I am brutally honest and I hold back nothing. Not recommended for anyone under eighteen. Sorry kid .

Target Audiences

Age: 55+,35-54,18-34

Target Gender: LGBT Leaning,Universal

Group Specific

Information not completed

Publishing Details

Status: Yes: self-published

Publisher: Self

Year Published: 2016

Hard Copy Available